Your children didn’t ask to be born into this.
Your children did not ask for you to fight to keep them so you don’t lose your only source of income and home.
Your children did not ask to be kept away from their family.
Your children did not ask to be raised in filth and put at risk.
You know all the right words to say. The right language. The recovery talk. Getting clean. Staying clean, rehab, recovery.
Because you have said it all so many times before.
These children did not ask to have to find themselves a snack because you can’t do it.
Drugs have been your crutch, your mistress and you don’t ever want to be without her.
Your family did not want to be forced to intervene. They did not ask to have their hearts broken again and again as this process repeats.
And even though you know the truth, you refuse to accept. You deny you are an addict.
You deserve so much better. This family and these kids need so much more.
The anger and hurt bubbles beneath the surface as we try and love you all.