Sometimes I wonder if it is all a bit much. Just for a fleeting moment. Like at 7am when I am running out the door, in the freezing cold to three soccer matches, with a pile of books, a laptop and the knowledge that the cleaning, cooking and washing will be waiting for me when I get home. The emails will still need answering and that essay will still need writing.
I juggle. A lot.
I try and give my time to my kids, to my study, to keep a clean home, to work, to be a good family member, to volunteer for the community, to attend school events, to garden, walk my dogs and give time to my friends.
Sometimes it is all too much. And I say no an draw boundaries.
And, it probably upsets some people.
I’ve said before, I’m not very good at drawing boundaries. At taking care of me and my priorities; but I am working on it.
And I’m improving.
I don’t always answer phone calls, emails and texts.
I don’t communicate with people who waste my time.
I try and utilise travel time. I also study or read at every chance I get. And yes, this is probably frowned upon too.
But, I need to do this. I want to study and learn. I need to work.
I need to be with my kids. I want to travel and I live my life in a way that is making me happy!
Yes, I am very busy. Yes, I do say no. Yes, I do ignore time wasters. Yes, I do juggle.
But, 99.9% of the time I am sure this is right. This is what makes me happy. This is what I want. I am crazy passionate about this.
And sometimes I think it’s crazy!